My Chinese New Year

In this journey, this is my last article. Perhaps after I stabilize my life, I will keep writing it. This Chinese New Year, I learned how to inject medicine into my father and test his blood sugar. I learned some knowledge about cancer and diabetes which my father suffer from. Right now, he recovers very well. Unfortunately, I lost myself in this incident.

Just like before, I studied in school, got together with friends, had a reunion with family, ate, and slept. I pretended I was fine and nothing happened during last semester. Unfortunately, I lost myself. I was the first one to listen to doctor to diagnose that my father suffered from cancer. I knew it is fate, so I was so calm in order to deal with it well. I even could not imagine that I could stand that. Finally, I passed that by using my strong will. However, I found out that I do not have faith at the time. I always encourage my friends and family to find out the passion from our minds. It probably is the love, family, wealth, or something they thirst to gain. When I face any challenge and question, I always fight for it by myself and rely on my strong will to pass them. But, this time, I am so tired. It does not mean if I have enough strong will or ability, I can pass it. It means that I am weak. Nevertheless, there is still one thing we can trust－faith. I respect religion but I do not have religion in my mind. This winter vacation, I saw a movie “The Rite”. It discusses about faith, belief and unbelief. It inspired some thoughts. It does not mean that I need to be devoted to a religion. It means that I need to find out the faith. Previously, my belief is my family. What I need right now is the faith which can support me and cheer me up.

Right now, right here, I still do not comprehend what I need to pursue to be my faith. I just know belief is a kind of energy which I need to protect, but the faith can feed back to me. I only am normal human being. I still need some things or somebody to cheer me up. As a result, my first step is to leave. To leave the place which I easily gain the comfort is the first way. If I would like to come back, it is simple; otherwise, if I would like to make a decision, it is hard to do. After I graduated from junior high school, I experienced many part-time jobs until I went to serve the military. At the time, I was a workaholic. The affection I have already forgotten for a long term. I need to grasp it back. The spirit of warrior is what I should experience again. To be accustomed to getting alone is the first condition to be a warrior. I need to forget that I was a knight. Being alone can cultivate my desire back and compress the energies. The soft whisper and good words is a kind of obstacles which halt my thought. These several months, I talk with my mind. I chat with some friends. I just like listening to their stories and soothe them. Sometimes I am jealous of thme, because they know how to release their press. For me, the only way can save me is by myself.

I am so apologetic that I do not say goodbye to all of you in person. It is a painful decision. I am really too tired to handle any extra feeling. To be lonely is the only way I get used to taking to overcome. I need some time to recover my spirit. Hope could forgive my leaving. I will miss you all of you. I deeply appreciate that you give me the priceless memories.

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Hereafter

Do you believe hereafter? When I was a child, I read a fantastic book about human’s soul. There is an experiment. Researchers put a dying person on a scale. After the man passed away, his weight dropped by seven gram. It means that human’s soul is about seven gram. If it is true, people must feel curious where the soul will go after people die. This winter vacation, I saw a movie “Hereafter”. It discussed about this issue.

This film has three main lines. At the finale, they cross and connect each other. This movie is directed by Clint Eastwood who is the man who shot my favorite movie ”Changeling” in 2008. Clint is an amazing director. His work always can use another angles to display to audiences. That’s his talent. In Hereafter, although this movie talks about where the soul will go after people pass away; however, it does not use any horrific or haunted way to transmit his thoughts. Audiences can easily follow the roles and get into the stories. The first line is about a journalist who has a vacation in Thailand. She faces a huge tide and experiences dying feeling. After she survived from the accident, she looks for a new meaning of human lives. The second story is about young boy whose brother dies in a car accident. He always relies on his brother. Following his brother died, he lost his direction and feels lonely. He tried to find out various psychos to connect with his brothers. Unfortunately, all the people who claim that they have super power are fakes. The third story is a real psycho. This psycho is played by Matt Damon. Originally, I think he could be like the role of “The Talented Mr. Ripley”. Nevertheless, it is totally different. His performance progress a lot. These three stories are progressing at the same time. Finally, they help each other to solve some mysterious problems. All of them gain some affection which they thirst to know.

I absorbed a good idea from an American drama, Lost. This idea mentions that if lives lost, they would go to a place which does not have time. For example, if a dog died, he or she would see his master who will die in the future. Heaven’s time is no limit, and it is a time point. When I saw Hereafter, it reminded me of this theory. When the young boy talked with his brother, his brother describe about where he exist at the time. It is like that he can fly there without any worries. I consider that Clint would like to create a hope for audiences. The hope can encourage people to live well. One day whole the souls will reunion again in the same place. Furthermore, the journalist gives audiences another definition for their lives. No matter what people meet in our life, we still can grasp what we desire to pursue. It is worth doing that. Every time every moment is not too late. Just start up to finish our dream. Even though during this journey we still confront many challenges, it is the more valuable key point. Finally, about the man who has the power to connect the dead, in our life, we always search for someone who can understand our mind, but it is so hard. This role gives us a hope to cherish what we have right now right here. Sometimes we even need to pretend something we do not know because the truth always hurts someone whom we take care of. If we can try to protect others, one day we will get a good relationship with the right one.

I like this movie because it transmits some practical concepts. It does not make people be afraid of future. It even gives people the hope. The hope can make people cherish the time. Hereafter is another extended time from now.

Bill Gates

http://edition.cnn.com/2011/HEALTH/02/03/gupta.gates.vaccines.world.health/index.html?iref=allsearch

During my vocation I read a piece of news about Bill Gates. It triggered me to think about what Bill Gates is doing now. From this news, I can know some things about him. I totally comprehend what is the different between talent and normal people.

This article mentions that Bill Gates addicted to supporting the vaccine for the poor areas around the world. For modern cities, gaining vaccine for our children is easily. However, for some children who live in poor areas are difficult to get them. Furthermore, because they do not gain stable medicinal support, the children’s intelligence keep low number, and the point average is under 80. If the children do not have enough intelligence, it will cause these areas harshly to develop. It is a circulating condition. People cannot healthily grow up, which results in poor city development. Bill Gates can see this key point. What he has done really promote entire world to progress. For many people, perhaps we just know how to donate the money or how to do some efforts for the people who need to gain assistance, but Bill Gates can see the point which people cannot see. The news shows another issue about that some people said that children who get the vaccine will trigger autism. Nevertheless, it does not have any evidence to prove it. Some medicinal professionals and experts said that vaccine is safe. They appeal to people not to worry that. Bill Gates stand out for support this report because one of the reason is that will reduce the people to donate their to his charity organization. He stand in front of the media to clarify this issue.

Bill Gates is really a prospective person. His foundation focus on some critical issues, such as Global Health, Children’s Vaccine Program, HIV Research, and many global development. After he announced that he would like to retire, he started to invite many wealthy people to cooperate this foundation. From my point of view, he always can recognize which is the most prospective point for human future. I remember his story about that at the time he worked with his friends in a garage. They developed DOS and sold it to IBM. He is so smart. He negotiated with IBM, having IBM use their system for free, and the only condition is that whole the IBM’s computer need to be installed their system. It is a amazing idea. Because when people are used to using their system, later it is hard to change their habits due to convenience. Another interesting tale about his wife, he used the statics to make up questionnaire to find out a female to date with him. Someone get the high score, which means that she gets the opportunity to dine with Bill Gates. The one later became his wife. If this tale is true, I really admire his behavior. It is so cool.

Today Bill Gates is 55 years old. Perhaps his organization will find out the therapy to cure AIDS or develop a new energy to replace for the energy. I deeply believed I can see some magic event will happen one day. I am so lucky that I have chance to see what he will do in the future. We live in the same age.

Justice

In 1996, a man Jiang Guo-Qing was accused of raping a girl when he served for military. He was sentenced to death and was executed quickly. His parents struggled for finding back his innocence. In 2010, his case was sent back the justice for him. Unfortunately, everything is too late because Jiang was already gotten shot and Jiang’s father passed away. They cannot see the day when justice comes back.

The press focus on how horrible the military is and who needs to take the responsibility. For me, I supposed that government needs to find out the people who involved in influencing this issue and hurt Jiang at the time. Furthermore, I am more interested in a man, a real man, Jiang’s lawyer. He accompanied with Jiang’s family for ten years. He even did not take any benefit from the family. He tried to reverse the judge. He and Jiang’s family spent ten years doing that. I do not know what kind of energy can offer the layer to keep carrying out this case. I just know he is so great. It is not a movie, story or novel. He is a real man who lives near you and me. What he did really inspire our society.

During dealing with this case, Jiang’s lawyer, Huang Da Yuan, used many ways to cope with and thirst to reverse this case. He and Jiang’s father ran a lot of places to find out any opportunity to change the miserable result. From the report, he said some things about his feeling to the media. The first thing is to insist in fulfilling this case for ten years. After he looked back the past, even he did not believe himself that he can stood for it for this long time. But, he really succeeded in doing it. The second part is that when he accompanied with Jiang’s father to find a member of the Control Yuan. The man said to Jiang’s father, I did not confirm the document yet but I subjectively trusted you by your efforts. When Jiang’s father went to take back Jiang’s body, the supervisors wanted him to sign up the name, and he did not sign his name but wrote down “The justice does not exist”. Huang said that these two things make him feel impressed.

Today we see many unfair and immoral incidents happen in our society. However, less and less people stand out fighting for it. The person like Huang is worth getting our respect. We need to acclaim his upright behavior. I’m so touchy to hear his story. It encourage many people who need the real justice.

This is Huang Da Yuan lawyer’s website:
http://www.sealawyer.idv.tw/menu2.htm

A Friend Who Affects My Life

As we grow older, we face some people who affect us a lot in our lives. I would like to share a girl who is one of my most special friends in my life. She is called JiaJia. We met each other when we were junior college students.

Jia Jia has ever gotten her heart broken after she was cheated by her first boy friend. From then on, she totally changed. She did not only trust a love relationship. She could dates with many boys at the same time. It does not mean that she would like to hurt others but she devoted all her heart to all the boys. I met her when I studied in junior college. We saw each other as freaks. Although we have a lot of different characters, we are loyal to each other. We never want to develop a love relationship. Perhaps, some things are more important than getting a love relationship. It is friendship. We were so young and felt confident at the time, so we think that getting together with boy or a girl is easy for us; however, keeping a friendship is harder.

We can discuss any things which even include some sensational issues, such as sex, man, woman, and so on. During the years of campus life, we always stayed at the same team. This team consists of several unique classmates who like skipping class, are difficulties students, and some students who other teams did not accept. Nevertheless, these unique partners have the talent to pass any challenges about exam, paper and graduation paper. Jia Jia is good at how to socialize with others. If we face some problem which we could not handle, she could use her network to find someone help us. I was good at delivering a speech. Furthermore, other members in our team have various skills to urge our team to promote. Although in other members’ eyes, we are troublesome students, we trusted each other and completed many amazing accomplishment.

Jia Jia inspired me a lot. It is a pity that we would grow up. After graduating from school, we rarely contact with each other as before. Sometimes we would chat on the phone. Unfortunately, when I went to serve the military, we lost the contact. This year, I went to a night market and faced a classmate. She told me that Jia Jia confronted some finance problems because she worked for bank and sold Structured Note, which is related to Lehman Brothers Holding. I remembered last time when she came to my home, she already got this problem, but she said nothing to me. I guess that she just did not want to protect some valuable feeling in her mind.

Time passes seven years. This Chinese New Year’s Eve, I got a message from Jia Jia. The message said that a person can meet many friends but only few persons can make us to miss. I felt so touchy after I received this message. I'm a lucky guy who can make this meaningful friend in my life.